Friday, April 29, 2011

Five Minute Friday: If I knew I could, I would...

I skipped last week as I was trying to limit my focus on Good Friday, but it's that time again!

What time, you ask?

Time to grab the kitchen timer and set it for five minutes and then write with abandon (I love using the word abandon...it is not a word that anyone would typically use when describing me, but a girl can dream, can't she?)  Just skip all the endless editing and stressing & let the words flow as they will. 

This week's prompt is If I knew I could, I would...

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I've never been about the unfulfilled dreams.  During that time in my life when my whole world fell apart and everything was chaos and I didn't know If I could make it through another day, I was particularly aggravated by the women in all those Lifetime movies who would triumph over adversity and end up in beautiful homes with fabulous careers as doctors or lawyers or what-nots.  I used to say my only problem was I needed to find me some dreams, goals, & aspirations...because for the life of me I couldn't come up with any.

Of course that wasn't quite true.  It's just that my dreams have never been all that, shall we say, financially lucrative.  All I ever longed for was a happy family who loved God.  What more could I want?

I have said for years, though, that what I do best is love on people.  I've thought many times that I would be just as happy as could be if I could just hug people for a living :)

Seriously, y'all, if I could keep a roof over my head by delivering casseroles and giving new mommies a couple of hours' peace, and perhaps sitting by a friends' bedside when they're ailing ....every single day...I would be in Heaven.  Because after all, mothering really is what (I think) I do best

I'm just so dadgum exhausted from all the trying to survive that fills up my days, and thus far I haven't quite figured out how to blend the two as much as I would like...

Yet.  But I'm open to suggestions ;) 


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Happy Friday!
Renee

8 comments:

Carey C. Bailey said...

Your vulnerability is beautiful. With Joy, Carey

Renee said...

Thank you Carey. I really enjoyed your post tonight :)

Heart n Soul said...

Being a mumma is a wonderful dream...to shape, influence and mould lives for the future is very significant and of eternal worth.

bahava said...

love the honesty in your post and i would totally take one of your hugs!! and being a good mother is such a valuable gift and makes such a difference in so many people's lives.
praying for you this morning.

Jamie @ Six Bricks High said...

You have such a sweet heart! I love this post. Wouldn't it be nice if we weren't caught up in the daily surviving stuff and could just love more? I'm not sure how, but your words have got me thinking.

P.S. I'm a new follower :)

AC said...

Lovely post. It is refreshing to know there's still people out there who are not led by "the financially lucrative." Hope you find how to blend the things you love.

Caroline said...

I appreciate your honesty in this five minute post! Lovely heart!

Toyin O. said...

There is no better accomplishment than raisng a happy family that loves God, it does not get better than that. Those doctors and lawyers you see on lifetime will seceretly kill to have your kind of children or life:)

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